I think I’m falling for my ex. We’ve been hanging out almost every day. We talk on the phone about the dumbest things..but we can talk forever. And I feel so comfortable with him. Like I can be a complete idiot in front of him and it’s okay because he’s a bigger idiot..lol. Seriously tho, I’ve been getting these feelings and I catch myself looking at him a lot. When he hugs me or lifts me up, I don’t want to let go. When we have our talks I almost feel like telling him how I’m feeling. I’m pretty sure he’s feeling it too but is just as confused as I am on how to approach it.

I feel like I want to be with him but at the same time that terrifies me because I’m not ready to commit to him. I like my fun. I like going to parties and finding a cute guy to flirt with. And he knows this too. He knows how much I love sex and all the guys I talk to, but it doesn’t seem to bother him, or maybe it does but he doesn’t say anything because we’re not anything but friends. But the tension is getting worse everytime I see him..we’re supposed to spend all Friday together upstate and then go to the movies..I wonder if I’ll allow anything to happen. I know as soon as something does, my single life goes out the window. And I’m not ready.

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I don’t need alcohol to make bad decisions